I don’t know how much of this is real or is fiction spoken through a narrator, but in terms of the writing alone, this definitely evokes strong emotion. that seems to be your strongest attribute as a wordsmith, far as I can tell.
I am glad I found your writing. You’ve got passion and guts in your words. I highly respect that.
(If this is your own story, then I’m sorry for what you’ve suffered, pale and pointless as that sentiment sounds.)